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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 9:16:39 GMT -5
“ Yes I suppose you are right but I do not mistreat them.. I’ve told them from the beginning I could or would not return those affections…”
Aziona face as normal was devoid of emotion, her eyes not even giving off the slightest hint of feeling yet another flaw of her Trujah blood.
“ Rarely do they turn against me… I treat those in my life with respect.. even if some do not deserve it… I am normally a fair person when it comes to those I chose to surround myself with.”<br>
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Post by alanmacknight on Feb 15, 2005 9:22:41 GMT -5
Fair enough. A true sign of honor is when honor is shown even when it is not necessarily deserved to begin with. That I can respect.
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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 9:33:31 GMT -5
“ People these days forget their manners Alan “ Aziona said as she stopped to look at him.
“ To respect another is to show them the ultimate sign of intelligence.. that you are more than what your blood and body consists of. This yet another reason why I chose to come to you “ She said her eyes lifting to stare into his, those tri colored orbs seeming to stare right into what was left of his soul.
“ You are more like me then I will allow others to believe.. Aloof.. yet very much aware of everything around you. Your live your life even though this may be the 21 century like the time of your original birth. How a true gentleman should present himself, chose to live his life…”
“ Even though you may not be want to admit mon cher’ you may come to find this Sabbat can be more civilized then your Camarilla counter parts.. But what I fear is the ramifications of our attempts to be friends with each other. I do not wish for the others to see you differently because you seemingly prefer my company..”<br>
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Post by alanmacknight on Feb 15, 2005 9:57:07 GMT -5
Concerning that issue. I understand you know much of me from your reports. And I assume that at least there is a tiny bit of curiousity as to why I would leave London and my positions of power there. This I will tell you, because I feel the need to let you know. As the years have passed, I have watched the camerilla go from an honorable, and for the most part respectible organization, though with always questionable motives, to a party of backstabbing, powermongering spoiled monsters who have lost touch with their honor, their humanity, and most importantly the original goals of the Camerilla. I share very few views even with my own clansmen. They are spoiled and powerhungery but do not wish to soil their hands with the tasks of an honorable leader. I am almost ashamed to call myself Ventrue. If my sire where alive today, then I am sure the path of his clan and the camerilla have taken in recent years, especially, would have broken his dead heart. That is why I have no childer, nor do I wish any. Concerning the Sabbat? They have been mortal enemies of mine since the days of old. There is very little that is honorable about them and I know this because I have researched them indepth. To forgo reason for the brute force of gang or mob mentality is sad, and dishonor is often the cameo of every Sabbatist activity. So as far as I am concerned, I find myself detesting both organizations as a whole. Neither have a clue as to what real leadership and honor are about. Because of this, I find it necessary to judge every kindred I meet on an individual basis, and not by their affiliations. And I will no longer be responsible for supporting anything that is not wholely honorable in its nature. That is why I am here. I would no longer do the honorless bidding of an honorless leader.
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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 11:05:45 GMT -5
Aziona took his hands in hers, her cold fingers lingering upon his flesh. for awhile she did not speak just stare down at the mans palms.
" I do not question your reasons as to why you may or may not have left London for. Positions and titles have a way of corrupting people.. the true person behind it all is what I concern myself with.
" To date I have three childer of my own.. my first I knew in my mortal life... I even refused the gift to my sister for obvious reasons. I myself did not want this life.. did not wish to become as I have now... I begged my sire not to do what he wished.. I begged for death.. a true death which he would not allow...
" For many centuries it seems I hid.. Hid from everything I was to become.. In Nor' Leans there I became Prince.. turning my hatred and sorrow into a mass attempt to flush the city. For years I felt no a sorrow.. no a joy.. no emotion.. just sat idly by watching mortals live the life I so much wish for...."
" In time I came to understand I could not hide myself away.. even though the adept in me longed for torpor.. I still do... "
" For now I surround myself with a select few... I chaste myself for being close to a soon be Ventrue Prince not so long ago..."
" I will not dam you for your thoughts on people in power today for they are my own.."
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Post by alanmacknight on Feb 15, 2005 11:10:45 GMT -5
So, can I assume that for all points that truely matter you have esquewed the Sabbatist way of life? What are your goals and asperations? Lower you mask and show me the real you, if you dare.
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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 11:19:40 GMT -5
Knotting her brows together Aziona didn't want to openly answer that question, a tear starting to roll down her check.
" In a moment of weakness I went to them.. I tired of everyone turning their backs on me because I am not a Brujah.. not a normal... anything.. I can not hide my adept it is just a part of me and I refuse to lower myself to the Camarilla mentality of life.
" So I chose the darker side of life in hopes of protecting my familia.. my childer.. So much have I tired to turn them into a mortal family I yearn for... "
Aziona gazed up at him, her normal tri color eyes swirling into a bright ocean blue.
" My goals and aspirations... for now to keep... for so long I haven't thought of myself.. only the others around me.. My business .. my work.. very very little of what I really want... "
" To just survive.. to be left alone to live this life I've detested so much.. Perhaps this might not be the answer you seek but that is all I have to give"
" To just be allowed to live how I wish not how others see fit.."
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Post by alanmacknight on Feb 15, 2005 11:48:10 GMT -5
Alan's countence slowly changed from one of curiousity to one of genuine compassion and concern.
"I understand, and the affiliation means little to me. Mine means nothing to me anymore. In many years I have committed many attrocities against those that call themselves sabbat. All in the name of the Camerilla's self proclaimed righteousness. They haunt me to this day. And they should for in my own moments of questioning, when I should have chose honor above the wishes of a corrupt organization. I chose poorly. For that I now that some day I will be required to pay back that which I wronged without just cause. Never again shall I bow to or command in the name of any organization. I will only do and be and act in such a way as to prove honor above all is the only way. I do feel for you, though I am sure that that doesn't help anything. I recently came to an understanding that those that chose to join the Sabbat are not always evil. Just making poorly informed choices or are in need of special protection due to the Camerilla's dishonorable Exclusivity. There is also plenty of evil hidden way within the Cammy. I do also wish there was something I could say or do that would make things better for you. That would give you a goal greater than simply survival. And to do so with no strings attached. *Alan looks down* But I fear I have little to offer.
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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 12:19:09 GMT -5
Aziona lowered he eyes again, her mind quickly chasing away her emotions again.
" In the times that are to pass you will understand why I have chosen to ally myself with you.. Many things will change this once pure city... And I fear I will be at the root of it....."
" For those who wish to defy me will be slaughtered like cattle before me like so many others in the past have been. I was hoping to spare you from such things." Aziona said meekly, her eyes raising to look into his again before looking at down at the ground.
" I only wish to protect those who deserve it... for those whom I wish to keep close to me..."
Aziona's voice lowered to a whisper fearing someone might over her
" They are coming here.. following me... The Hand will not release one such as I... to strong they think.. the one weapon they have against the Camarilla that can defy the true laws of nature.. Undo anything that once has been done... Angelus is only the first... and not the last....."
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Post by alanmacknight on Feb 15, 2005 12:29:25 GMT -5
Nods his head, as he understands what is said. "The Hand is dangerous indeed. I realize this. But if it is my fate to face my final death, then I will face it with honor. I came to this quiet city seeking freedom from the Cammy and the Sabbat war. I tire of the constant conflict. But as is the fate of all warriors. Trouble often follows. My only love in life has been my love for the ways of the honorable. Where I see dishonorable acts, I am compelled to right them. Where I see the weak or the innocent needlessly harmed I am compelled to protect. Where I see wanton destruction and killing, I am compelled to attack. Not for the sake of the Camerilla, nor for the sake of my clan, but for the sake of such higher ideals as Honor, Compassion, and righteousness. Yes, I do know that my unlife is forfeit and that most likely my efforts a fools errand. But I must do what I must do. Let the chips fall where they may.
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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 12:38:52 GMT -5
Aziona's voice for the first time became firm with Alan, her hands dropping from his.
" They will give me what I want and that is how it will be.. No Angelus... no Adriana.. no own childer... no bloody Sabbat nor Camarilla will dictate unto me what I may or may not do. "
" If I request for you to be left alone they will do my bidding or the entire city will feel my wrath.. I refuse to be anyone pawn.... "
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Post by alanmacknight on Feb 15, 2005 12:46:10 GMT -5
Alan with no expression change at all on his face says, "And no one should. You should be free to live your life how you wish it. You should never be anyones pawn. But if you make everyone your pawns, then what does that say about yourself? I have ghouls that serve me and they do so honorably. And each and everyone of them are free to leave at anytime. To make sure that they always have that freedom I usually request they retire after 10 years of service. But, I do not force them to work for me. They know that I will never ask them to do something that I myself will not do. They know that my honor and integrity are unquestionable. They are not my pawns, they are my employee's, and they like the boss they work for. Obviously you misconstrued something I said. For that I must appologize. You should be no ones pawn. I will be no ones pawn also. I do however serve a greater purpose. Always have, and I always will.
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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 12:53:35 GMT -5
" Enough of these talks of politics, I refuse to speak bout these matters for the rest of the evening " Aziona demanded in disgust.
" This is not how I want to spend this night... talking about these things... " She said softly.
Letting go of the Ventrue Aziona walked over to a near by park bench, her frame slipping down onto the sit. Burring her head in her hands Aziona's shoulder slumped in defeat...
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Post by alanmacknight on Feb 15, 2005 14:53:32 GMT -5
Alan walked gently and quietly over to the bench and sat next to Madam Aziona. Leaned back and took a steadying breath. "My apologies Madam. Consider the subject dead."
He then placed his elbows on his knees and leaning forwards, placing his weigh on his elbows, he lowers his head and is silent for a very long time. He sighs and murmurs, "I have little to offer."
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Post by Aziona Xanthus on Feb 15, 2005 16:44:53 GMT -5
“ You have more to offer than you understand Mousier’” Aziona commented quietly.
“ Nothing everything in this life can be done with valor, honor and or other things like that… In today’s world its not possible.. not all the time at least. In today’s society people are no longer measured upon how good of a person they may or may not be.. The nature of the beast within us does not allow just to be mortal anymore.. to be a truly kind person..”<br> “ Our lust for blood and vengeance only empowers us to be the rotten ass bastards we’ve so known to love and become.” Aziona said with a sigh
“ Little of our kind even can enjoy the simple beauty of a star light night.. or even the taste of a decent robust wine anymore..”<br> “ I think it would be a wise choice to introduce you to my inner circle… those that I keep close to me… we are one alike the lot of us…. You’d fit in perfectly…”
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